I haven’t been blogging for the past two months due to real offline work. I have missed so many changes in the blogosphere and I haven’t had enough time to actually get re-acquainted with with all the changes. Like a new version for Wordpress (wasn’t able to attend the WordCamp too..boohoo!), changes in Entrecard, and Google’s new Chrome browser. I’ve been working offline and I feel so stressed out. It had made me think hard whether I want to keep working for the company I am working for right now or to go back to blogging and start baking as a sideline.

I miss blogging terribly not only because of the freedom I have with regards to my schedule but also because of the different people I’ve met and gained knowledge from. With my current line of work, I’m learning many things too but I am not meeting a wide range of people that I get to do when I am living online.

Having a stable offline work is good in terms of monetary rewards. I can count on receiving a salary every 10th and 25th of the month and I will be able to receive from benefits when I reach my 3rd month there. However I’m feeling really stressed out in my job right now. My head hurts a lot these days and I don’t have the energy I had back when I still worked online. I also have less time to spend with the people I love and seeing my old friends. Since I started working, my whole life has changed and though I met lots of great people who I consider as my family already in that company, I don’t feel happy anymore. I think of the job as a burden now. I get nightmares at night (or morning) when I get home to sleep and when I wake up I still worry about my job. I don’t think the money I am getting from it can compensate for the stress I am experiencing daily. In fact I don’t look forward going to work. I have been dreading the time that I have to leave our home and ride the shuttle to work. I know in my heart that I am not happy anymore.

Though if I leave, I would not have a steady income that I can rely on. I would need to work double time on my blogs again (plus maybe sell some baked goodies) so I can be assured that I can make ends meet. Its so frustrating that what makes me happy can’t sustain my needs at the moment. I want to resign but I can’t resign just yet. Life is so annoying at times.

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